6 November 2013

It's just a tiring day...
listening to songs and turn the "shuffle" on~

"I wonder what the world would be like if we all just got along
There would be more happy songs; we'd be dancing all day long
I wonder if you talked to me, would you see a better man?
I sure hope that's what you'd do, 'cause I would see a better you

Better you..."

Better you- David Chi

cause this song... will be kept in my memory forever :)
we will always be friend, right? cause it seems i need time to forget you hehe ~
bye... 

12 October 2013

The first time we met,  we saw each other right in the eyes many times.
what did i think?
"Maybe he likes me" "or does he think that i am annoying?"
I saw you because you catches my eyes.
I didn't know why i kept staring at you.
Is it what you called love?

we kept seeing each other many times.
I wonder why does he saw me in that way..
keep wondering "does he like me?"

We went uphill of a mountain.
I thought he would help me a lot..
but he helped my friend a lot.....
they walked while holding hands and he took care of her

After we went back, you chat with her, asked her line, but not mine.
right at the moment my friend told me this, I realise my feeling to him is already late...

12 October 2013

Tik... Tik....
The sound of the rain breaks the silence.
The thunder comes and goes unknownly.
The sky grumbled like an old man,
and the warned me before all of them happens.

It's similar with my life...
Before I falling in love, I know that it will hurt.
But I cannot prevent it not to happen..
I was ready for it, thought that it will be fine.
Until it happens now.
I was replaced with someone else.
He loves someone else.
And i can't describe it with words.
It breaks my heart, always make me cry when i thought about it.
Why did he do that?
Yes. She is prettier than me. Yes. I know I am ugly.
Yes. I am not perfect. Yes. I have flaws.

This broken heart? is torturing me.

6 October 2013

Love is something we can't explained.

My heart beats faster when someone I love is next to me

I always want to protect and take care of him

I always worry about him

My life become like a roller coaster

I feel easily angry when he is with the other girls

I feel easily happy when he spends his time with me

I feel easily disappointed when he breaks his promises

My life won't be complete without him

My day just won't be right without him

My feelings will be empty

And there is no fun without him.

When there is event, 

and he gave me roses, chocolates 

or even something simple like letter, 

it's like the best day ever.

Cause that's what girls think romantic.

Back hug or natural kinship will make our relationship perfect

He touches my hand and hold it 

He keeps it warm with his hand

But not too far cause we, girls, won't like it that way.

Every time he greets me, I smile

Every time he jokes around, I laugh

Every time he hold my hand, I am shy

Every time he needs someone, I am there for him

That's what I called "love"

29 September 2013

I WANT THIS DRESS!!!

#forever21

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

26 September 2013

I will be 16 soon ~ 3 hours to go~~ The first wish i want is keep improving my score and skills for english, math, economic and business ^^ Other subjects just need to be passed.
Second wish, I want LOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE~~ *can't saying the name of the person in here*. He is handsome U,U I hope i will be close with him ㅋㅋ
Third, I want my face stays young and i hope my body has a better shape, curve T.T *am i being too honest?* hehehee thats okay right? Since noone I know in real life read this xp

All in all, I want to thanks to Jesus for all that he gave me. :D I know that he arranged everything for me and I feel thanks for the life he gave me :) Thanks for my parents who are taking care of me :D and Thanks for my bestfriend for keep standing next to me.

THANK YOUUU ^^

24 September 2013

Dear diary,
       I felt like i just want to stay in my house this week, even though my birthday is on this friday. I wondered why i felt like that, why i didn't want to meet my friends. I just found the reason.

 “Because sometimes even if you know how something’s gonna end that doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy the ride.”

-Ted Mosby-

       I enjoyed the ride. But, it's the end now. Can we still be a best friend? Can you be my 'something more than best friend'? Will we keep chatting? Will our chats hurt your girlfriend?.... Dozens of questions are in my mind right now.
      Heyy, we are just a best friend. I shouldn't do that right? I don't have any rights to say that i don't like it and say that you can't have a girl friend.
      'Diana, you have a long way to pass. You can't be this sad okay? Eat popcorn or chocolate, watch movies, play piano? That's what you said right? If somebody is sad, they can do those activities to forget those sad things? So, why are you still sad? You act like you are the master of love when you are nothing when you are falling in love. Keep smiling... Diana....'
Your owner, 
Diana...

15 September 2013

I am waiting for you, my destiny..

Dear you, 

     How are you?

     Are you fine?

     I hope you are and always be fine.

     I am here.

     Waiting for you,

     Waiting for the day we will meet.

     Or did we meet already?

     I wonder where you are now.

     I wonder what will you looked alike.

     I wonder your characteristics.

     Are you handsome?

     Are you smart?

     Are you funny?

     You don't have to be all of that.

     I will love you for who you are.

     So, will you come to me?

     I will always waiting for you, my destiny.

     But i won't always be passion.

     So, will you come to me faster? ^^

Your destiny,

Diana

8 September 2013

7 September 2013

When you are angry and scold me, I keep quiet and forgive you.

When you feel frustrated, I smile and keep cheering you up.

When the world turn against you, I never leave you.

When you told me to go, I stay beside you.

Time passes, yet you are still the same

And luckily, I am not tired of anything.

When the world change,

and the wheel turns.

Problems come to me, 

but your problems solved.

Right at this time,

I want you to stay.

25 June 2013

I wanna scream and shout, and let it all out
and scream, and shout, and let it out

Scream and shout-Will.I.Am

If you sing it and read the lyrics for the part above, does it sound like when we wanna poo?

12 June 2013

Jika memang kau terlahir hanya untukku
bawalah hatiku dan lekas kembali..
ku nikmati rindu yang datang membunuhku
untukmu seluruh nafas ini

Seluruh Nafas Ini-Last Child feat. Giselle

Fate Of Us

I decided to make a love story of a woman, named Kana. The story starts here.

It starts from here.

     I am having a holiday in an island, alone, an island that is the symbol of romantic where many couples are having holiday. Far from traffic, far from pollution, and all that i can hear is the sound of wind. It is nice to breath and feel the air in here, relaxing my eyes by seeing beautiful sunset.
     I am a girl, who loves simple things like a feminine dresses, shirts or skirts with no "blink-blink" accessories,  and i am the one who loves flowers and pastel colours. I am quite short with a height 157 cm. My eyes are pure black, my skin is white but not a pale-white, my hair is long and black. Even though I want to have big eyes, but the truth is i have small eyes. But, I still feel thanks for it since my bestfriend, Christy, always says that i am beautiful with my own way.
     I am wearing a white, a long flora dress with no sleeve and a large hat. I am walking on the sand near my apartment, seeing kids playing around and bringing a novel while searching a place to sit. This is a life I dreamt about. I was so happy until i hum by myself.
     I was reading my books when cars are coming one by one. Time passes and now this place become crowded in a sudden. I try to find what makes this place become crowded. I think this place will used for kinda photo shoots' location. I just continue reading my books and trying to feel the peace i found before, again.
     "Kanaaa!!" I turn my head and search the people who just called my name. I can't find who called my name so i just grumble "Is someone just called my name? Maybe i heard it wrongly" by myself. I continue reading but "KANA!!". Someone gently touches my shoulder and hugs me from behind.
"Christy!! I miss you so much!!~~" I just know it's her because i heard her voice clearly.
     She is my old friend and she is the one that helps me whenever i have problems like job. She introduces me to Mrs. Karl, my boss who is a fashion designer.
     "Why didn't you tell me when you arrived in here?" she asked.
     "Ahh, don't worry. I knew you were busy since you become your cousin's manager."
     "But, you are wayyyy more important than him. I will rather choose you than him, stupid."
     "Heyy, i am not stupid. remember that."I hit her head just for kidding.
     "The fact is you are stupid. You didn't know who is handsome, you don't know you are beautiful and you didn't know many boys in our college likes you. Remember? You ignore them because you think you are not mature enough??"
     "It is not like that. I just scared they will break my heart like my father breaks my mother's heart."
     "Okay. So that's true. You are not mature enough because you don't think far enough, like not all boys are the same."
    "Yes, I know so please stop this topic, alright? I will think later on for my love life. What did you in here except for seeing me?"
     "My cousin will have photo shoot with another models for your favourite brand. See? You wear the dress from this brand again."
     "Hahahaa Yes. Is this really happen?? The new collection one? Can I see it later on?"
     "Of course yess, I will do anything for you, baby."
     "Ahhh. I am going crazy now. I can't wait to see it and be the first one to see the new collection."
     "Yess. They are preparing now. See the crews over there?"
     "Yes. Why?" I point the crowded place.
     "They are preparing for it and waiting for the female model. We will work in here for around 1 week or 2 weeks. When will you go back to Aceland?"
     "Next 1 month. I feel so happy when Mrs. Karl let me have this holiday and also, I feel so happy because i can go back to my apartment and meet you in here!!"
     "Yayy!! I feel happy when you are happy~ Let us go there and I will introduce you to some people who i know well."
     She grabbed my arm, running slowly and bring me up with her. I run slowly as i do not wear any shoes or sandals.
     "Heyy!" She says to a tall man with a blue eyes, seems like he is the head of the crew because he keeps command anyone else. He turns his head and walk to her.
    "Heyy, Christy!" He said it loudly while hugging her. Where is Zac?"
    "He is checking his stuff in his new apartment there!" She is pointing my apartment. I try to keep my emotion and not to look shock, but she knows it. She says, "Ahh!! I forgot that you live in there too!! Wait, i forgot to introduce my friend, Kana, to you!"
     "She is your friend? So beautiful~ My name is Arnold Kerwick and you can call me Arnold. It is nice to meet you."
     "Thank youu, i am always curious why people say that to me. By the way, my name is Kana Anastasia. You can call me Kana."
     Christy says "Kana is a shy-type of person, so I hope you understand that."
     He continues "Yes. I can tell that when i first saw her eyes. But she still looks beautiful and i think she fits perfectly for our brand's female model. Do you want to be our model? We have too many dresses and we will chooses some for you.
     I say "I think I can't. I am not tall enough and i never did this before."
     He replies "Please? Your posture suits our dresses and we will give you a large amount of money, too."
     But I keep with my opinion and defines myself "Do I look like I need money?"
     Christy, who keeps quite at a time, says "Kana, it is a big opportunity for you. Do you remember when we were in college and we bet for our score? We say that the one who gets higher score can ask for a wish from the lower score. I won and I didn't ask for a wish that time. Also, I helped you a lot when you had problems. Please? You can think and inform me your decision, tomorrow."
     When we have our conversation, a tall man with brown-eyes comes to us and shock us "Christy! I need to hang out to relax my mind, please hand my car-key, the red one."
     Christy says "Okay. Wait in here and i will take it in less than 1 hour."
     "Keep fast or i will tickle you, remember that!" Then, suddenly, our eyes met. He says "Christy!! Who is this girl? Why don't you introduce her to me??"
     She replies from far "She is the one i told you!! Kana!"
     He says to me "So, you are Christy's best friend? It is so true that you are so shy and beautiful." He put his hand in front of me and keep talking "My name is Zac Wayne, you can call me Zac." I shake his hand and stare shyly to him. He stares sharply and makes me feel i want to go away from that place.
     At this time, Christy comes, give the car-key and says "This is it, say thank you to me."
     Before he replies, I say "Christy, I think I need to relax myself and think about it later. I will go back and take a bath, okay?"
     She says "Okay. Byee! I will wait you in here!!"

to be continued

Part 1-romance story